late last night i realized i will never be able to accurately see myself. physically. of course i have an idea of what i look like but what do i really look like from the outside? what do others see that i can not. mirrors do not show reality. mirrors are deceptive as are reflections. they are not accurate. the reflection from one surface is completely different from another. photographs are questionable… so in a way my own interpretation of my physical identity is lost. i will never know. unless i physically pull my eyeballs from my eye sockets and face them towards me. but that will most certainly never happen. in the negative chance it does then i would be looking at me, eyeless, and that is not normal.
